Sharing struggle and recovery

I wanted to share a recent "conversation" I had with a friend. We are working through the "Life Recovery Bible". It really is a wonderful work. It follows the 12 steps of recovery programs, like Alcoholics Anonymous and the such, but really is wonderful for recovery of virtually anything. We are doing it for food and weight loss and learning so much about our "dependencies". The reading was as follows with my comments below them: Step 4 Genesis 3:6-13 I really got alot out of this small reading. 1. Passing the buck or blaming something or someone. 2. Hiding my nakedness, literally. 3. Making the outside look good while not cleansing the inside. 4. Not listening to God. I do not feel we need to be fully open with the world, our families, our friends; but we need to open up to God. He all ready knows what we are trying to hide and is asking us "who told you you were/are______"fill in the blank. (ugly, shameful, bad, etc) We could pass the buck; society tells us, the doctor told me I'm obese, the teacher said I was bad, and so on. But who really is telling us? Satan has allowed us to become our own judge and jury. Now I'm not passing the buck, just admitting that I tell my self bad stuff all the time and every time I do it allows Satan to pass me one more apple so to speak. It is March the 14th, 12 days from this reading and I have been so sucked in by the serpent! My praise of success and joy in striving and not suffering have been crushed into a week of eating like I used to, and a panic inside me causing obsession of shopping or pet finding. I haven't felt so empty and frustrated in a while! That sneaky serpent! I will admit I gave into him, but I will NOT pass the buck. I made the choice, though subconsciously, I did it. My God in Heaven! Thank you for bringing me back to this lesson so that I my start over with confidence and reverence by your grace and strength. Help me to fight the temptation of the "apple". It only causes me illness. Let me drink and eat of your spirit and get back on the road you have planned, never forgetting the serpent will sneak in at every opportunity to "crush my head."